I’ve started and deleted this post several times. It feels so weird to talk about and I don’t even know where to start with it because it’s so many things. So, before I get started I’d like to give you a head’s up that I’m going to talk about how I am mentally preparing to have a third child. I’m not pregnant. I don’t even know if I will be able to have a third child. But we would like to have a third child to complete our family and I know we are very grateful to even have the option to have a third. If you’re not in a headspace to read about expanding families, please do not read this post. I know how isolating it can feel and what that ache feels like, so please do what’s best for you.